Did I win or Lose?

Words by Beth S. member her from Real World Los Angeles and the challenges including the Gauntlet that just finished...well Bethy likes to blog about the show and here's one of her bloggings. Beth is funny.

Did I win or lose? It depends upon your perspective.


Yes, I lost to Coral in Ball Brawl. If I had to lose to someone, I'm glad it was to Coral because she is a veteran's veteran. The truth is that I lost on purpose because I wanted to leave. I knew the veterans were being greedy and didn't want to play like a team. They were not motivated by winning the game through any concept of sportsmanship or fair play; they were simply motivated by greed and the power of money. I didn't want to be a part of that kind of challenge. When I left, I really wanted the rookies to win. The money wasn't important enough to put up the nonsense and these guys will do ANYTHING for a few dollars. I knew my team wanted Coral gone, so I thought the best thing I could do was leave her to hang with them, to give them Hell. I wouldn't be paid anything more to stay longer, and I knew when it was all said and done, the veterans would lose. These are things I said in my interviews with production at the time, which, of course, were not shown during any of the episodes.

How did things get to this point? Well, you only saw the very slightest hints of it during the episodes. The "drunken" CT wasn't just something that happened early in the season, it was a constant, recurring theme. He appeared intoxicated almost the entire time, and I wasn't interested in being around someone who is a loaded gun and who could possibly assault someone – again – at any time, without provocation. NOT COOL.
When it became clear, following the loss of a couple of key players for the rookies, that the veterans would dominate the entire challenge, those key veterans began their scheming. I overheard one of their conversations. Their clear focus was not on winning as a team. Their interest was in maximizing their personal greed. How much more money would they take home for each person they eliminated people from the team. In their view, they would have to manage these "executions" themselves, since the rookies appeared incapable of doing it for them. Their greed was toxic and I wanted no part of it.


I shared this info selectively with some of the women. Evelyn didn't believe it, or perhaps more appropriately, didn't want to believe that the guys, particularly Kenny who she had saved on a previous challenge, would lie to her about something so significant in the game. Robin and Katie were aware, and in one episode, the editors used a clip where it was discussed. Evan and Kenny tried so hard to be cool and funny, but I wonder if without their "MTV" fame, they could get a chick to save their lives. I've been asked if Evan made fun of me to deflect the fact that he is losing his hair and doesn't want anyone to notice. Perhaps he does. Evan, everyone notices you look already look forty and that is scary. You are not fooling anyone by wearing all of your hair forward. What will you look like when you are my age? Seen any recent pics of Jeff Conaway? Pathetic. I hear Hair Club for Men is calling. You even threw your friend Coral under the bus to look cool on camera. Some friend you are. That is behavior only a horrible person would resort to.



also check out reality blurred.com for more on the Gauntlet and the Real World Bash
http://www.realityblurred.com/realitytv/archives/challenges/2008_Mar_19_gauntlet_iii_finale_beth_alcohol
http://www.realityblurred.com/realitytv/archives/the_real_world/